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Tuesday, July 18th, 2006

Time:6:52 pm.
I made a new LJ

belle0611

Add it. I'm not deleting this one, but I'm sick of it and I want a new journal for the new part of my life that's starting. Love you all!
In other news, I miss Big like a mongoose!!
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Monday, July 17th, 2006

Subject:That's why I know now... I have to go now
Time:12:09 am.
Mood: sad.
It's over. That was the best theater experience I've ever had. The past 2 months have been crazy, but I've loved every minute. Even when the kids are like hell spawns, I loved being a part of this fantastic show. I'll always remember every single person in it, and I'll always keep those memories with me. I love this show. And I love my new family at the Apple. I'm so happy that I got to be in this show. Thank you, Jessica (and Char) for pushing and pushing me until I decided to auditon. This show changed me a lot and I am so grateful that it was my last show in Sarasota.

I have only updated with pictures once, so watch out because there are a crapload...
I made a wish and it came true...Collapse )


And for the record.... I am now finally crying.
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Thursday, July 13th, 2006

Time:5:36 pm.
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

I miss somebody right now. × I don't watch much TV these days. × I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. × I love to play video games. I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.  (Only when making fun of Ryan.) × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
it goes on...Collapse )
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Monday, July 10th, 2006

Subject:when you're small you can hide like peter pan
Time:12:00 am.
Mood: bored.
but when you're big you have to be a manCollapse )
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Friday, July 7th, 2006

Time:12:04 am.
My favorite part of today was the random phone call from Mr. Charlie Barnett.

"My friend thinks you are really cute.... and it's NOT Chris Ferro!"
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Friday, June 30th, 2006

Time:2:55 pm.
He called me.


.... today is already a helluva lot better.
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Thursday, June 29th, 2006

Subject:And rain will make the flowers grow...
Time:11:32 pm.
Mood: aggravated.
Well, today continued to be utterly craptastic....
Thanks to Jess and Caitlin for helping me get through the rest of the day. I love you guys!!!!



This means tomorrow will be better, right?
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Subject:I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Time:12:08 pm.
Mood: mreeeh.
I am such a freakin idiot. I always do this, and I always regret it.
I miss Kellie. No one understands me like her. And she always offers good advice and just tells me that everything could be okay.




1 month and 16 days.... too close, yet too far.
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Monday, June 26th, 2006

Subject:Can't keep my eyes off of you...
Time:10:36 pm.
Mood: content.
I'm so happy. Today was amazing. Like, I'm just giddy with good feelings. Today was so productive and I got to have fun too. I picked up my glasses and ordered new contacts, dropped off books at Ohrenstein's house, FINALLY GOT AN OIL CHANGE.... and saw the love of my life. He called around 2 and wanted to hang out. I said I had some stuff to do, but to call me later on and we'd see. And to my surprise, he actually called. So I went over to his house. And we had fun, just like the old times.

And he promised he'd call me soon.
And I actually kind of believed him.
I guess we'll see what happens.

But being with him just makes me feel like I've never felt with anyone else. Ever. We just have so much fun together, and I can completely be myself. I'm so scared that I am going to get my heart broken again. I told him that today. That I feel like such a fool because he can just not call me for months and yet, there I am, back in his arms the second he calls. I really do love him. So much. I've loved him since 10th grade. What can I do?



I miss you, Jessica! I can't wait to see you tomorrow! It's so weird doing Big without her.
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Thursday, June 22nd, 2006

Subject:The joys of live theater
Time:10:37 pm.
So it was an interesting night. A power line fell right outside the Apple during the first act, which caused a bike to catch on fire. And therefore we had no power, so the show got cancelled right before the Act 1 finale. All the kids were freakin out, but I was a good door guard to make sure they all stayed calm and upstairs. The police weren't letting anyone who parked in the back lot out. Jess was parked back there, but I wasn't so we drove over to Coldstone and got ice cream. It was delicious. Then Charles called to say that she could get her car. But before that, a redneck in a truck pulled up near where we were sitting and said "hey, in about 10 years, give me a call!"

... creepy, yes. But always good for the self esteem.


In other news, I don't care anymore. About him. He can do whatever he wants and screw whoever he wants. I was a little upset at first, but I don't even care. I just like, don't want to be near him though. It really was my bad for dating a 16 year old. I probably should have expected that. I'll never be doing that again. Gross....

Anyways, life is great. I'm happy with life. I love this show. Love it love it love it.
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Monday, June 12th, 2006

Subject:BIRTHDAY!
Time:12:28 am.
Mood: loved.
Thank you so much to everyone who left me a happy birthday message. It is so nice to have people who care!!!

Hands down, best freakin birthday ever! It started last night at 12, getting calls from Ryan, Mary, Raven, and Charles and a text from Chris Ferro. This morning I woke up to missed calls from Kellie and Claire. Other people called throughout the day like Rolfe, Dani, Kellie again, and Raven again. My parents got me a gorgeous pearl ring that is getting sized and I'll have on Saturday. My sister got me a book that will be very handy in college, lol. And I got lots of money from relatives.

Went to breakfast with the fam, then to the mall to get the ring sized. Came home, showered, got ready to go to the theater.

So I got to the theater and Chris Keller tells me that I'm not allowed to go upstairs. Okay, weird but whatever. I went to go see my parents who were seeing the show tonight. It was getting close to 1/2 hour so I went backstage and Larry pulled me aside and was like "sit here, I have to do something." Then he serenaded me with That Face from The Producers (which he was in on Broadway and played Leo Bloom, the character who sings it.) It was amazing. I was smiling ear to ear the whole time.

Then the kids finally let me go upstairs. I opened the door to the costume shop and everyone throws about 60 balloons (no joke) at me. The lights were turned off and all the light was the candles on the cake. And everyone sang Happy Birthday Josh (except with my name.) It was so nice. And I was bombarded with hugs, which I love. So I went to the dressing room to get ready and there are flowers from Melissa and cookies from Catherine. So nice of them.

At intermission, I go upstairs to change and Catherine is there with ANOTHER cake. All the adults sang and Catherine gave me a big kiss and said "this is from all of the adults... we love you!" I also recieved a nice, sloppy, wet, BUT LEGAL kiss from Roy. Haha, loves it. Yet another surprise was revealed when I found out that Charles had planned for everyone to go bowling after the show. Which was amazing fun.

Completely incredible day. More than I could have imagined or wanted. Thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who made this the best birthday I have ever had. It was truly amazing. I love my friends. I love my life. Happy 18th birthday to me!

And yes, Patrick is officially my boyfriend.
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Saturday, June 3rd, 2006

Subject:Time to hang with the gang and toss a ball
Time:11:08 pm.
This icon is for Caitlin and Jessica. Bop to the top!

... with scenery.

Umm Big is absolutely amazing. I am having so much freakin fun. I guess Patrick and I are sort of a thing now....? I don't even really know how that all came about, but whatev. He's sweet and very very hot. Leo's house was fun. I love Alex. He is so ding dang hilarious. Who knew that a 12 year old could be so freakin cool?!?!

Beau's mom is coming to the show tomorrow. That makes me really nervous and I know it shouldn't but it does. I feel like I have to be a million times better than I otherwise would be, so she can go tell him "Oh yeah, Laura was great." WHY DO I CARE?!?! This isn't even like I-want-him-back-make-him-jealous nerves.... it's look-I'm-more-talented-than-your-kid-so-watch-me-dance.

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Monday, May 29th, 2006

Subject:grgjdlf nior TONY'S
Time:10:03 am.
Follies is over. It was very bittersweet. I'm glad I won't be so stressed out by doing 2 shows at once, but I am going to miss doing Follies. I'm so lucky that I got to do one last show with all my friends before I leave. I could not have asked for a better time. I have been so blessed to have been about to be a part of this amazing show. Thank you all for making it so much fun for me.

Things that will be missed:
- The boobie song
- Having a different cast every night
- Dawn Burns telling us how she loved the show
- Putting rubbers on the chickens
- Tramp face
- Grape, Ape, Monkey
- The "word of the day"
- Asbestos
- Memopies
- Coloring books
- Greg being his weird self
- Betty always wanting to play a game of some sort.
- BRG
- Claire's disappearing Loveland wig
- Homo Delectable
- Judith's boobies
- Laughing through Loveland every night
- Safety pins
- Panic attacks going up the stairs with no railing

... there are many more. That shall be written when it isn't time for rehearsal. Which means not now.

Love Follies.
Love Big.
Love it all.
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Friday, May 19th, 2006

Time:11:46 pm.
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU, BUNKY!!!!!

I LOVE YOUR GUTS. YOU WERE ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE!!!!!!
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Wednesday, May 17th, 2006

Time:12:56 pm.
BestAssBelow14th (12:40:21 PM): My noggin is always on.
RiniChibiMoon2 (12:40:58 PM): Grape.... ape.... monkey?
BestAssBelow14th (12:41:09 PM): I'm a poet.
RiniChibiMoon2 (12:41:30 PM): Do you think about these things often?
BestAssBelow14th (12:41:58 PM): Always.... my noggin's always on
RiniChibiMoon2 (12:42:21 PM): Yes, you said that. :P
BestAssBelow14th (12:42:43 PM): well it's still true
RiniChibiMoon2 (12:43:06 PM): Well.... yeah.
RiniChibiMoon2 (12:43:06 PM): it is.
BestAssBelow14th (12:44:04 PM): Damn straight.


That basically made my day.
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Subject:You know how I know you're gay?
Time:7:31 am.
Mood: awake.
Even though she doesn't read this...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RAVEN MERRIAH JONES!!!!!!!!!!

Oh man, I love Follies more and more everyday. Last night we put Claire in the freezer in the green room. Probably one of the funniest things I've ever seen. It was freakin amazing. Last night I was meeting Kellie at Starbucks for coffee before the show, and all of the sudden Claire shows up. Then Raven and John get there. And then Caitlin comes! It was insane b/c I only thought I was meeting Kellie, haha. Craziness!

Okay, can it please be 6:20? I want to leave for the theater right now! I ran out of my sleepy pills last night, so I woke up at 6. Eww.... that's like 4 hours of sleep. Sucks.

2 days til Big rehearsal starts!
4 days til my party!
24 days until my birthday!

Ahhhhhhhhh, I freakin love my life!
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Monday, May 15th, 2006

Subject:Love your bat boy...
Time:9:48 pm.
Mood: nerdy.
It seems like all my friends are unhappy lately. I'm sure it'll pass, but I hate knowing that people I love are sad and I can't help them. I've been kinda discontent lately. About my appearance. More so than I ever have before. Like, I've been dressing in t-shirts and jeans everyday b/c I don't want people to see my fat stomach. And I don't want to smile b/c I hate my teeth. I hate being so uncomfortable in my own skin, but (in a twist of irony) I can only shake the feeling when I'm on stage dancing. I have no problem smiling til my face hurts when I'm dancing away. Which might be partially why I love theater so much.

Follies is so much fun. I have met and gotten close with so many people and gotten even closer to people I already knew. I am going to be a wreck when this show ends. At least I get to go on and do Big with Caitlin. Because I love her guts, and we can talk about Follies together.

I watched Kellie's Bat Boy DVD tonight. I had never gotten to see it b/c of The Cocoanuts, but I LOVED it. The cast was PERFECT, and I loved the choreography. And holy big voice for a little person, Caitlin has got nicer pipes than an organ! I love it... I have such ridiculously talented friends.



Okay, I suppose I'll get some rest seeing as it is my only night off until June 5th. Can't wait for Follies tomorrow!
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Sunday, May 14th, 2006

Subject:each night when the curtain came down
Time:6:40 pm.
I think my eyelids are permanantly stained blue. And there are sparkles engrained into my skin. And feathers stuck to me forever.

But I love it. Follies is a blast. I really am having an amazing time. I'm so glad that I decided to do it.

Big rehearsals start on Friday! Yay!!!!! And my birthday is in 27 days. And my grad party is in 6 days!

I am tired and cranky right now, so this entry is now going to end. I love you all, especially Follies people!


(Oh and the show is especially enjoyable when HEATH JORGENSON is there!!!)
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Friday, May 12th, 2006

Subject:Here's the home of beautiful girls
Time:1:18 am.
Mood: I LOVE FOLLIES.
Wow, I really really love Follies. Tonight was magical. We kicked ass, and the afterparty was tons of fun. This cast is totally the best. I will be really really sad on May 28th.

OH and today is exactly 1 month until my 18th birthday!!!!!! Woo hoo! Life is just fabulous right now. I honestly couldn't be happier.

My parents sent me a dozen gorgeous roses to the theater today. It is the first show in my 10 years of doing theater that they have missed opening night.

Tonight we decided that when I have my Loveland dress on with my pre-wig cap hair, blue eyeshadow, and my Marilyn mole, I look like Madame Thenardier from Les Mis at the wedding. I totally do.

Ahh I can't wait to do this all again tomorrow!!!
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Tuesday, May 9th, 2006

Time:11:57 pm.
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I love Follies!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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